Hopelessly Inappropriate Thoughts

h.i. creativity

midlife crisis

  • from stress

    I wish I could floatacross the sky line…no longer bogged down BOYANT, AWAY I GOMountain and trees up toptickle my toes  I’d travel the world roundnever tiring of the show! YES! For today, for a timeI’ll stay a cloud floatingaway from my cramped mind. You can come and join me!From stress, FREE we’ll fly! (I… Read more

  • Inspiration Aligned

    Inspiration illuminates the insane lack of inspiration I’ve had over the last few years. I battle the world quietly in a broken body and brain instead of actually accomplishing anything but ensuring my kids get a loving rearing. I’ve been turned ON! INSPIRED! Even as livid eyes from across the room tell me how stupid… Read more

  • Face It

    Cracked glass clouded by steam, the reflection skewed reality, my face distorted, monstrous! That’s why I cover mirrors. Sometimes, someone sees me, wheels making me too obvious, and I ponder what they think… “You’re so strong!” One exclaimed. Muscles atrophied to skin ‘n’ bone long ago, weakness whittled from could to should to won’t with… Read more

  • Chronic

    I am chronic PAIN painted as pleasure (inhaling moon rocks, to clear the chronic smoke). I dance defiance INSIRATION my salvation (eating my paralysis) in search of chronic peace. Read more

  • A Nervous Talking Thing

    My mouth is really small for how many times I’ve put my foot in it. I babble myself into some tirade, whether education, politics, or religion. I’ve got too much to say, and anxious before an audience, words explode like bubbles of thoughts or opinions without thinking. For weeks after I go out, I puzzle… Read more

  • A Passive State

    A vampiress in training I’ve been since birth, sucking the lifeblood out of everything good, catastrophysing terrified my world’s going to end before I’m ready to be done… I day-sleep or night-light troll, fretting about what comes next, knowing I have no control over any of it… I’ve been playing hide and seek with death… Read more

  • Spring UP, Purge OUT

    It’s that time of the year where my insides shimmy and shake to escape the only four walls I ever see, to hop ‘n’ romp like a wild bunny! I spring UP and muscle my wheels to move, then at the door I handle, I freeze. Who will go with me? Nearly a decade ago,… Read more

  • overwhelmed

    Find the darkest space in your house, and that’s where I’d find solace. Hidden in a corner under a blanket reading, my mom would ask, “Are you a vampire? Get in the light or you’ll ruin your eyesight.” I knew she’d be right, but I couldn’t stop looking for a dark place to escape, to… Read more

  • Punchline

    I didn’t want to. I tried not to. But, I did again, ruined a relationship. I gave it my all. Then, I hit a wall. TYPICAL, I just couldn’t call. My brain denies movement, paralysis Fears too much… I give up. To You: I’m back in music league, and this came up on a round… Read more

  • Steam Whiffs

    A nips out chill induces a clenched spasm forearms to breasts, slightly wet, as my fingers pay homage in tiny taps upon my mug, and I inhale the steam whiffs, succumbing impulsively, going back to the time my smile finally felt GENUINE. Read more